Inhumane Treatment Of Pain Patients In USA

Tears of Truth....

I opened up My friends blog today (“Pharmacist Steve”). It is Steve Ariens Blog; and I saw a story of torture. There is torture going on in America! I’m seeing it every day now on the Internet! More & more chronic pain patients are being treated like common criminals! This is despicable! My God, are we living in North Korea, Afghanistan or in some 3rd world country (whos people , by the way; don’t deserve this kind of treatment any more than we don’t!!)?

How can the news media @Foxnews.com, @CNN, @MSNBC and all of the rest, be so one sided? Please, I implore you @POTUS, @GovChristie @PetersforMichigan (Senator Gary Peters), @NYGovCuomo (Governor Andrew Cuomo), @onetoughnerd (Governor Rick Snyder of MI). I implore you to think of the forgotten legitimate chronic pain patients. People are now living with daily chronic pain and receiving no treatment at all. They being totally…

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Summary of Posts about the Opioid Crisis — EDS Info (Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome)

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Here is a collection of my posts from various sources with basic information about the issues surrounding the opioid “crisis”. Important Posts CDC Guidelines CDC Guidelines Refuted with Scientific Evidence CDC: Opioid Guidelines Not a Rule, Regulation or Law 5 Myths About the CDC Opioid Guidelines

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FEELING LIKE I AM ALMOST GONE!

Happy, Happy Thanksgiving to all!

I love you all! I have been so busy fighting/advocating for Chronic Pain Patients Rights… too many individuals are committing suicide at phenomenal rates because they are in horrendous pain… feeling desperate, lost, alone, overwhelmed, scared, broken and feel like they have no other options!
PAIN IS RELENTLESS, PAIN IS CRUEL, IT DOES NOT DISCRIMINATE, IT COULD HAPPEN TO YOU ugh…
Please pray for me and all the 100 Million+ Americans who suffer 24/7,

365 days a year! Will be meeting with legislators, media etc. to bring/spotlight attention to this whole man-made, opioid epidemic we are facing here in the the United States of America. Shaking my head… I can not believe how badly our civil rights are being VIOLATED!
Today CHRONIC PAIN, tomorrow what… Freedom of speech?
I miss each and every one of you… really do! I think of you all on a continual basis (everyday in fact) honest to God! XXXOOO
A side note if anyone suffers from chronic pain issues or you know anyone who does, please do reach out to me!
Our voices need to be heard, if we band together we can make change!

EVEN IF YOU DO NOT HAVE A CHRONIC ILLNESS / PAIN,  one day God forbid, due to an accident, illness or other circumstances this might be your Journey too!

And/or you believe the government should stay out of our Medical /health rights and not play doctor with our lives.
We need you tears… please!
I IMPLORE YOU… I AM FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE AND MORE IMPORTANTLY THE  MILLIONS OUT THERE WHO ARE  IN TREMENDOUS,  TREMENDOUS , TREMENDOUS PAIN !
I spend approximately 16+ hours a day working on this… not just for me, but, for that veteran who is contemplating suicide  because his pain is so out of control and he can’t get the medications he so desperately needs. And for that woman over there who isolates herself in her room barely ever  leaves it, except to go to the bathroom.  Who feels lost , alone, desperate and curled up in a ball crying out in so much pain. Who feels like suicide is her only option!  She cannot find a doctor who will listen, care, respect, acknowledge and treat her illness/pain so many of us have the same story, yet different.
We are labeled, judged and feel as if we are the Forgotten and unimportant part of society. We feel as if government, medical community, most time society as a whole doesn’t care, we are labeled drug addicts, drug seekers, lazy, and the list goes on and on and on!

Imagine what that does to our self-esteem and self-worth. Especially, when you have validated, qualified medical proof of your ailments yet, you are victimized time and time again!

It does so much to mess up your psyche it’s incredible, in addition with the pain… too much!
With the new FDA guidelines they are killing us pain patients by under treating or not treating our so painful conditions it’s Insanity, it’s inhumane and torture!
In fact, United Nations Policy… states that Pain Management is a Fundamental Human Right Under Treatment or not Treating is a form of torture and is a crime against humanity!

Our government is totally ignoring each and every one of our explanations and/or pleas to be heard, and the wrongs that have been done to us Made-Right.

Inaccurate, manipulated information be corrected with the right statistical information!
However, they the GOVERNMENT/MEDIA  just DOESN’T CARE, AND DOESN’T RESPOND!
So many of us in the community feel as if we have no value.

Every single day, and I’m not playing, every single day. I talk to No Lie 10-30 different individuals who are desperate… have no medication or at the very end of their medical medication.  They are crying and screaming in pain, who want to kill themselves as they see no other viable option. I know exactly how they feel as that has been my mindset on numerous occasions!
I have videos of me in pain and there’s a huge difference between me properly medicated  giving me quality of life and me not medicated not wanting to go on!
This truly is a PUBLIC EMERGENCY and PEOPLE NEED TO GET INVOLVED ON SO  MANY LEVELS!
I apologize for this long, long, long post…    I am just such a concerned and caring empathetic individual who tries to always stick up for the underdog!

For those who cannot stand up for themselves.

Regardless of how ill I am! Or how incredibly this is to the depriment of my health which is speeding up my eventual death! But I feel like God is telling me that this is my purpose! So I will not stop until I take my last breath!
It’s all about Humanity, mankind, empathy and justice for those who suffer whether it be from #DEPRESSION, #RACISM, #MENTAL OR EMOTIONAL ILLNESS, #SPECIALEDUCATION #DISABILITES (AUTISM my grandbaby💙💙💙) TO #CHRONICPAIN.💜💜💜
So with no options and so much pain  there are only three options for us .

Since  so many individuals are being weaned or completely taken off our medications that we have been prescribed for many many years…

#1…  current  guidelines be rescinded  and made right more regulations put on safer prescription prescribing…. but we have access to our medications!
#2 we go to the streets probably turn to heroin as it is cheaper and easier to find. Thus, we will still be one of the statistics addicted with possible outcome of overdose. Costing the government money which is the root of all evil and probably behind this whole made up crisis
#3… #SUICIDE our pain will not go away it is chronic it is every day, it is relentless and by taking away our medications you are not only taking away or quality of life but no viable option is replaced!

We are told to go see a psychiatrist what is a psychiatrist going to do about our pain? It is not made up it is not going to just magically go away!

Even if we were to go into mandatory as they’re trying to get bills passed that individuals who test for opioids have to go into mandatory rehabilitation centers.

Our pain is still not going to go away we are still going to have it!

All of the statistics for overdoses were all grouped together that includes aspirin, medications for diabetes, cocaine, alcohol, heroin in the illegal Fentanyl we’re all included in the statistics which was 60,000 + but that is not 60,000 prescription opioid deaths, which media, White House, Christy  and Kolondy have has led us to believe! There are more falling deaths then opioid prescription related deaths!
I have so much more to say but will in another post! I am attaching a couple links so you could go ahead and see this information for yourself!
God bless you I love you and Happy Thanksgiving #WhatWhat #WHOOPWHOOP#YEPYEP #TOTALLY #100ALLDAYEVERYDAY XOXOX

Due to this whole opioid man-made made up crisis either join contact me or some kind of advocacy group! Day are putting inaccurate misinformation manipulated to serve their purposes out there in the media so many people are misinformed and truly believe the information that is being said to them is true and accurate when that is so far, so incredibly far from the truth! I have researched, and researched! And Edition, IB long 2 several group many that advocate and educate those who had no clue of the Injustice that is being done to chronic pain sufferers everywhere!

In fact I belong to a very Elite group with all of the top Advocates / doctors / authors actors and actresses / PhD / professors flash chronic pain individuals etc…
We as a whole research dispute and just bill information that comes out in the media Exedra

Oops she can’t attach the link or I’ll lose the post one of them is to opioid epidemic in six charts designed to deceive You, by Josh Bloom
Another one pain Wars, bye Suzanne Stewart other amazing amazing articles by Dr. Forest Tennant, Richard Red Lawhern and Dr. Thomas Kline Dr. Margaret Aranda

This could be a matter of life and death!

IMPORTANT INFORMATION COULD SAVE YOUR LIFE!!!
PLEASE JUST TAKE 5 MINUTES TO READ!

💜💜💜SHARE THIS POST FOR CHRONIC PAIN COMMUNITY STAND-UP FOR US…
WE ARE IN A FIGHT FOR OUR LIVES LITERALLY AND FIGURATIVELY! 💜💜💜

SPEAKING OUT, ADVOCATING, BEING THAT SQUEAKY WHEEL WILL BE INSTRUMENTAL IN OUR BATTLE AGAINST THOSE WHO ARE IGNORANT OR JUST MISINFORMED ABOUT THE TRUE STRUGGLES WE ENDURE DAY IN AND DAY OUT!

WE ARE AT A CRITICAL JUNTURE RIGHT NOW PEOPLE AND EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU NEED TO RECOGNIZE THIS BEFORE IT’S TO LATE AND YOU NO LONGER CAN RECEIVE YOUR MEDICATIONS THAT ARE ESSENTIAL TO EXIST!!! ⌛⏳⌚⏰⏱⏲
I IMPORE YOU TO TAKE A STANCE, THE TIME IS NOW!

RIGHT THIS VERY SECOND!!!
STEPS YOU CAN TAKE;

1. REPOST THIS POST NOT JUST ONCE BUT, SEVERAL TIMES OVER NEXT COUPLE OF WEEKS!

2. GET YOUR FAMILY, FRIENDS, FOLLOWERERS TO POST AND REPOST!

3. START THE CONVERSATION REGARDING THE NECESSITY FOR YOU TO CONTINUE TO GET YOUR #MEDICATIONS WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS, FOLLOWERS, WHILE ONLINE POST, EDUCATE YOURSELF SO YOU CAN EDUCATE OTHERS!

4. BE A VOICE, CALL, FAX, WRITE YOUR LEGISLATORS THERE ARE TONS OF SITES YOU CAN ACCESS THEM ON!
IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM DM ME AND I WILL HELP YOU!

HAVE YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS ETC DO THE SAME!

PEOPLE THIS IS A FIGHT…
A FIGHT FOR YOUR LIFE.
TOO MANY PEOPLE ARE COMMITTING SUICIDE BECAUSE THEY COULD NO LONGER GET THEIR MED’S!

IF IT WHERE FOR YOUR CHILDREN WHAT STEPS WOU LD YOU TAKE?

HOW FAR WOULD YOU GO TO SAVE THEIR LIVES?

WOULD YOU WRITE SOME LETTERS, MAKE SOME CALLS, ASK FRIENDS, FAMILY, NEIGHBORS AND FOLLOWERS(STRANGERS) TOO DO SAME?

HOW FAR WOULD YOU GO TO SAVE THEIR LIVES?

I DON’T KNOW ABOUT YOU BUT, I WOULD CLIMB ANY MOUNTAIN, SWIM ANY OCEAN. WHATS EVER IT TOOK TO MAKE SURE THEY WERE OKAY IS WHAT I WOULD DO!

IN A SENCE IF YOU ARE A PARENT WITH CHILDREN ESPECIALLY SMALL ONES YOU ARE SAVING THEIR LIVES BY SAVING YOURSELF!

WHO WILL LOVE THEM AS MUCH AS YOU DO ?

WHO WILL TAKE CARE OF THEM AS WELL AS YOU WOULD?

PAIN IS RELENTLESS, CRUEL, NON-DISCRIMINATING, CONSTANT IT STARTS TO DESTROY YOUR BODY, MIND AND ULTIMATELY YOU THE WHOLE YOU!!!

More to come on next post!
God bless each and everyone of you!
If it sounds like I am pleading I AM!
IF IT SOUNDS LIKE I AM BEGGING… I AM!
I DON’T WANT TO DIE YET!

I WANT TO SEE MY 7 GRANDCHILDREN GROW UP THE OLDEST ONE IS 6!
JEREMIAH MY OLDEST GRANDBABY HAS AUTISM.
I WANT TO ADVOCATE FOR HIM (SPECIAL EDUCATION) TO MAKE SURE ONE DAY HE IS NOT INSTITUTIONALIZED!

I AM SCARED, SCARED TO DEATH THAT I WON’T BE ABLE TOO, IF WE DON’T ALL STAND-UP RIGHT NOW… NOT TOMORROW…
OR NEXT WEEK…
BUT RIGHT THIS MINUTE…
TOO MANY LIVES ARE AT STAKE!!!

UGHHHH….

ANESTHESIA AND ANESTHESIA PUBLISHED AN ARTICLE;
PAIN MANAGEMENT IS A FUNDAMENTAL HUMAN RIGHT

http://journals.lww.com/anesthesia-analgesia/Fulltext/2007/07000/Pain_Management__A_Fundamental_Human_Right.37.aspx

PAIN MANAGEMENT A FUNDAMENTAL HUMAN RIGHT
CONSEQUENCES of UNTREATED OR UNDERTREATED PAIN is a poor Medical Practice that results in many adverse effects.
UNRELEIVED PAIN after surgery increases heart rate, resistance, and circulating catecholamines, placing patients at risk of myocardial ischemia, stroke, bleeding, and other complications.
Unrelieved acute pain commonly elicits pathophysiological
neural alterations, including perceptual and Central neural Sensation, that evolved into chronic pain syndromes.

Chronic pain is linked with a consolation of maladaptive physical, psychological, family, and social consequences, and can be regarded as a disease as a disease entity per se.
PHYSICALLY these RESPONSES include reduced MOBILITY and CONSEQUENT LOSS OF STRENGTH, DISTURBED SLEEP, IMMUNE IMPAIRMENTS and INCREASED SUSCEPTIBILITY TO DISEASE
THE PSYCHOLOGICAL RAMIFICATIONS of CHRONIC PAIN are PROFOUND a WORLD HEALTH ORGANIZATION (WHO) who study revealed that individuals who live with chronic pain are FOUR TIMES MORE LIKELY TO SUFFER FROM DEPRESSION OR ANXIETY CONSISTENT WITH OTHER STATISTICS on CHRONIC PAIN as a RISK FACTOR FOR for both conditions.

Persistent pain in patients with cancer interferes
View story at Medium.com

Cathy Kean Grandmother Fighting for Autism

LET’S BE AMERICANS AND STAND UP LIKE THE TRUE, STRONG  AMERICANS THAT WE ARE???

LET’S BE AMERICANS AND STAND UP LIKE THE TRUE, STRONG  AMERICANS THAT WE ARE???

AS I SIT HERE REFLECTING ON THE FACT THAT AS A  CHRONICPAIN PATIENT MY RIGHTS ARE BEING VIOLATED  …
AND ANY CHANCE TO HAVE SOME SORT OF “QUALITY OF LIFE IS BEING STOLEN FROM ME”!

THIS OPIOIDCRISIS / EPIDEMIC DOES NOT, WILL NOT, AND IS NOT LOOKING AT THE BIGGER PICTURE !!!

THOSE OF US WHO SUFFER FROM CHRONICPAIN, FIBROMYALGIA, LUPUS,
ENDRO, BACK INJURIES  AND OTHER HORRIBLELY DEBILITATING PAIN ISSUES,
CHRONIC PAIN ISSUES,
THAT  WILL NOT EVER GO AWAY.
We have to live with this condition the rest of our days! Medication gave us at one point some sense of normalcy. However, now because of this man made self-appointed by the powers that be, they have made this a crisis for all of those who suffer from chronic pain issues!

IMAGINE THE WORST PAIN EVER THE WORST PAIN YOU HAVE EVER FELT IN YOUR LIFE!
JUST SIT WITH THAT FOR 2 OR 3 MINUTES PLEASE!  I know that this is difficult to do fortunately our body has a mechanism  to forget the intensity of the traumatic pain. However for us that mechanism is broken and we just feel the intensity of pain continually each and every day.
Thank goodness or we would stop having baby after baby! If we were able to really consciously remember the intense pain, no one would want to suject themselves to it time and time again!

Now imagine FEELING that EVERY MOMENT of EVERY DAY…
24/7, 365  DAYS A YEAR.
And those are your good days the tolerable days!

Now imagine the bad days WHERE the pain is so BAD you LITERALLY WANT TO END LIFE AS YOU KNOW IT.

Approximately 2 years ago,
I was prescribed medications that gave me a sense of normalcy. I actually felt alive.  I still had pain it was just tolerable and manageable, my life was substantially better.

When I say substantially…

I CAN’T EVEN BEGIN TO ADEQUATELY AND
EFFECTIVELY DESCRIBE THE  HORRENDOUS BLOODCURDLING INTENSITY OF CONSTANT #PAIN AND WHAT it DOES TO YOUR BODY PHYSICALLY MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY
AND DO IT ANY JUSTICE!

THE QUALITY OF MY LIFE HAS DECLINED 90% SO DRAMATICALLY IN SUCH A  SHORT FRAME OF TIME and THIS  IS NO EXAGGERATION…

AND NOW OUR VET’S THE SAME INDIVIDUALS OUR WHO FOUGHT for our COUNTRY and ULTIMATELY SACRIFICED SO MUCH FOR OUR COUNTRY ARE BEING VICTIMIZED AND BEING TREATED LIKE GARBAGE!

THEY ARE NOT RECEIVING THE  CARE AND MEDICATIONS THAT THEY NEED TO LIVE ANY LIFE OF SUBSTANCE OR QUALITY!

MANY ARE TAKING THEIR LIVES LEFT AND RIGHT DUE TO SOMETHING THAT CAN BE SO EASILY REMEDIED…!

DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT SPEAK UP!

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!

America….
And every American needs to stand up for America.

I’m taking a stand…

I’m standing up because the
hundreds of thousands who
died fighting in wars for this country, and for the U.S. to oppose the constitution of the United States! Chronic pain The fundamental right to be treated this is Lee stance on Humanity calling it Torture to withhold pain relieving agents two individuals who suffer from pain issues!

If you don’t want
to forward or repost this for fear of offending
someone, then…

THEY ARE TRYING TO PLAY DOCTOR WITH OUR LIVES TODAY IT’S PAIN MED’S/OPIOID MEDICATIONS WHAT WILL IT BE TOMORROW?
FREEDOM OF SPEECH?

YOU’RE PART
OF THE PROBLEM!
WHEN WILL  AMERICANS
STOP GIVING
AWAY  OUR RIGHTS ???

We’ve gone so far the other way…

WAKE UP AMERICA!!!

If You agree pass this on..
If You don’t agree, Just Delete It  disregard it!
ButShameOnYou!!!

I totally think I know who will repost this can’t wait to see your Love, dedication, Pride for being in the best country in the world the United States of America baby #whatwhat

God bless America land of the free home of the brave….

# UnitedStates #GodBlessAmerica #PROUDAMERICAN #American #USA #pledgeallegiance #freedomofspeech #Constitution #ArmedForces #vets # veterans #soldiers #military

I AM WHAT I AM…

I AM WHAT I AM…

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I am what I am,
All imperfections included…
from my #WHOOPWHOOP’S,
#YEPYEP’S and #WHATWHAT’S
to my pain, sorrow and sadness…
I am what I am,
because of the journey that was placed before me from imprisonment by cruel sick criminals, rapes, molestation, abuse, physical, mental and emotional…which tore my soul apart… always questioning,
why does everyone always hurt my heart?

I am what I am,
because of all my challenges both good and bad…
I’ve learned to own them, live and sooth them… they will always
be apart of my story…
I used to hide away, never draw attention near,
always afraid that I was not
worthy of anything good at all.
I had so much fear!

But, one day I realized that I unlike no other still had a heart of gold, no one could kill, destroy or quiet…
I am pretty much a storm…
So, I began to speak my heart and outside influences would laugh,
I was told your strange,
you’ll never be a thing other than a victim, a failure, not much of anything…
I with great pride and confidence said, “I am what I am “, “I’m Cathy with a “C”, and “I like me, I’m loving,
I’m caring,  I’m empathetic to all,
a beautiful sight to see”…
“I’m expressive, animated, silly and different, I am uniquely me”.

So think, before you judge me.
I feel sorry for you.
To carry so much hatred must
do a lot of harm to you.
I’ll continue to be me.
I know God has big plans,
as I’m one who has the ability to touch a lot of hearts and have been there a victim a broken and wounded heart.
So please don’t let your past dictate tomorrow.
Aren’t you tired of living in this sorrow?
So..  I am what I am today,
everyday can be a brand new start!

Written by,
Cathy Kean
#DEPRESSION #IAMWHATIAM #ILIKEME #ILOVEMYGBABIES #ILOVEMYKIDS #HOPEFORJEREMIAH #TIREDTIREDTIREDOFTHEPAIN #chronicpain #support #NARCISSISTABUSE #DESPERATELOVE #ACCEPTANCE #DONTJUDGEMEYOUDONTKNOWMYJOURNEY #UNITY #WEDESERVEBETTER #ADVOCATE #SPREADAWARENESSABUSE #YOUDONTKNOWTHEREALME #ACCEPTANCE #DONTJUDGEME
#WHOOPWHOOP #YEPYEP #TOTALLY #100ALLDAYEVERYDAY #WHATWHAT #JUSTKEEPINGITREAL #BAMWHATYOUKNOWABOUTTHAT

Should the police be trained on how to deal with individuals with Autism (ASD)?

Should the police be trained to deal with people on the autism spectrum? 

Yes,

I do believe wholeheartedly that it should be mandatory for police officers to be trained as part of their normal training process.

And have to receive continuous ongoing continuing education follow-up classes in line with the Department of special education recommendations!

THIS SUBJECT BRINGS A LOT OF CONCERNS FOR PARENTS WITH AUTISTIC CHILDREN.
BECAUSE THE SPECTRUM COVERS SUCH A LARGE SECTOR OF #ASD AUTISM SPECTRUM DISORDERS COMMUNITY.

It is essential that police be educated, trained and study the behavioral differences from all areas of the spectrum.

THERE CAN BE ALL KINDS OF SAFETY ISSUES FOR INDIVIDUALS WITH ASD AND LAW ENFORCEMENT HAVE TO BE SYMPATHETIC AND well TRAINED/EDUCATED on how to handle a range of different behaviors . Many autistic individuals do not pick up on social cues as the general population of society would.

Many on the Spectrum have no filter (as far as representation of themselves),  law enforcement might have a difficult time and misinterpret their behaviour, reactions or non reactions.

Thus, safety issues could inherently arise.

In addition, fair and reasonable treatment could come into question if there is not some set standard, protocol implemented, followed and enforced.

I will continue thoughts on next post.

I will reveal first-hand experience on this subject. My son on the spectrum was harassed, victimized, violated and traumatized by two police officers… shaking my head just makes me sick just thinking back to that time.

My son, had nightmares for six months. This situation lead us to many court cases.

It was an extremely emotional very traumatic time for my son and I. Heads were rolling baby head where rolling mama don’t play!

Will explain on my next post which will be extremely detailed .

And I am very tired and I want to pay attention to detail so with my fibromyalgia and lupus and fibo fog creeping up on me… I will save this for part 2!

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On PARENT TALK:

http://patienttalk.org/should-the-police-be-trained-to-deal-with-people-on-the-autism-spectrum

84 Possible Fibromyalgia Symptoms

Excellent

Fibro Champions Blog – How fibromyalgia affects me on a daily basis . . .What I have learned about living with this chronic invisible illness. Christain friendly posts.

84 Possible Fibromyalgia Symptoms

Of those who respect fibromyalgia as a legitimate medical condition, most of them associate chronic wide spread pain as the primary symptom. Some also recognized chronic fatigue and fibro fog as additional symptoms. But what many do not realize or appreciate about fibromyalgia is that there are more than 82 symptoms that go along with fibromyalgia, either as a primary symptom or overlapping secondary symptom.

Also consider that many of these symptoms can be unrelated to fibromyalgia and could easily be symptomatic to other types of illnesses or diseases. This list is presented as something to think about and as information you may want to talk to your doctor about.

This list of fibromyalgia symptoms are alphabetically ordered.

  1. Abdominal cramps
  2. Abdominal & Digestive Symptoms
  3. Awkwardness
  4. Bloating & nausea
  5. Bruising or scarring easily
  6. Chronic wide spread pain
  7. Clumsiness
  8. Confusion
  9. Coughing
  10. Cravings for carbohydrate and chocolate
  11. Delayed reactions to physical…

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I AM WHAT I AM…

I AM WHAT I AM…

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I am what I am,
All imperfections included…
from my #WHOOPWHOOP’S,
#YEPYEP’S and #WHATWHAT’S
to my pain, sorrow and sadness…
I am what I am,
because of the journey that was placed before me from imprisonment by cruel sick criminals, rapes, molestation, abuse, physical, mental and emotional…which tore my soul apart… always questioning,
why does everyone always hurt my heart?

I am what I am,
because of all my challenges both good and bad…
I’ve learned to own them, live and sooth them… they will always
be apart of my story…
I used to hide away, never draw attention near,
always afraid that I was not
worthy of anything good at all.
I had so much fear!

But, one day I realized that I unlike no other still had a heart of gold, no one could kill, destroy or quiet…
I am pretty much a storm…
So, I began to speak my heart and outside influences would laugh,
I was told your strange,
you’ll never be a thing other than a victim, a failure, not much of anything…
I with great pride and confidence said, “I am what I am “, “I’m Cathy with a “C”, and “I like me, I’m loving,
I’m caring,  I’m empathetic to all,
a beautiful sight to see”…
“I’m expressive, animated, silly and different, I am uniquely me”.

So think, before you judge me.
I feel sorry for you.
To carry so much hatred must
do a lot of harm to you.
I’ll continue to be me.
I know God has big plans,
as I’m one who has the ability to touch a lot of hearts and have been there a victim a broken and wounded heart.
So please don’t let your past dictate tomorrow.
Aren’t you tired of living in this sorrow?
So..  I am what I am today,
everyday can be a brand new start!

Written by,
Cathy Kean
#DEPRESSION #IAMWHATIAM #ILIKEME #ILOVEMYGBABIES #ILOVEMYKIDS #HOPEFORJEREMIAH #TIREDTIREDTIREDOFTHEPAIN #chronicpain #support #NARCISSISTABUSE #DESPERATELOVE #ACCEPTANCE #DONTJUDGEMEYOUDONTKNOWMYJOURNEY #UNITY #WEDESERVEBETTER #ADVOCATE #SPREADAWARENESSABUSE #YOUDONTKNOWTHEREALME #ACCEPTANCE #DONTJUDGEME
#WHOOPWHOOP #YEPYEP #TOTALLY #100ALLDAYEVERYDAY #WHATWHAT #JUSTKEEPINGITREAL #BAMWHATYOUKNOWABOUTTHAT

BEHIND THIS MASK

BEHIND THIS MASK 

 

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Lies so much brokenness, pain and damage hidden from all, she’s tried to reach out but, no one has payed attention at all…

BEHIND THOSE EARS 

So many words which echo and wounded her soul, you are not good enough,

not pretty enough,

not smart enough,

Why are you even here? Your a failure to all…

No one wants you, you can disapper no one will miss you at all.

BEHIND THIS BODY

So many scars from hands placed upon it she’s been violated, beaten and more.

BEHIND THOSE EYES

Which have cried more than most, they have seen so much hatred from those she trusted most… feeling as if they were right.

Why don’t they really see her? She’s been hurting so deep.

She’s been wanting

to go while she sleeps,

never to wake up and put an end to all the emptiness, anguish, judgements from all… which torment her daily she just wants some peace and get away from it all…

Oh no, someone is coming …

So, she will put on her mask now and play her role for you all…

Pretending to be happy, complete, a servant to all…

She plays this role well, putting a smile on her face while living in the purest of hell…

So, before you judge another person, please remember these words!

Strength,  beauty and character can be beaten out of us all…

Be kind to each other

for you have no idea the

story their journey at all…

You can be the difference between them really living or not wanting to at all…

Written by,

Cathy Kean

#DEPRESSION #FIBROFIGHTERWARRIOR #CHRONICPAIN #INVISIBLEDISEASEISREAL #ANXIETY #INSOMNIA #FIBROFIGHTERWARRIOR #INVISIBLEDISEASE #BUTYOUDONTLOOKSICK #TOTALLY #WHATDOYOUKNOWABOUTTHAT #DONTJUDGEME

#TIREDTIREDTIREDOFTHEPAIN #INVISIBLEILLNESS #DONTJUDGEME #ITSGOTTASTOP #DONTJUDGEMEYOUDONTKNOWMYSTORYORJOURNEY